Embraced by your presence on the frequency of love [Successful Out of Body Experience]

Tonight I registered some progress! It wasn’t groundbreaking but still it was a breakthrough that left further cracks and craters in my late ‘reality’ and self consciousness which was significantly shattered after your passing and my brief but profound and mind-altering experiences with lucid dreaming and astral projection/phasing/OOBE.

Tonight again I made up my mind to try to enter a wake-induced lucid dream (WILD) through wake-back-to-bed and FILD techniques (sorry for the extensive terminology). I woke up to my alarm, took the 5 HTP neurotransmitter pill which has proved to be successful twice already in this scenario, put on my headphones to listen to some binaural music which I also find quite helpful and set my intentions for the dream.

I’m still analysing what happened next, because it was different both from a lucid dream and from the first projection experience I had some time ago. But it was mind-blowing!

In about 20-30 minutes I realised my body was asleep and my consciousness was free. I thought I would be entering the dream, like I often do, from the very beginning into some dreamscape, but I was still in my room and in the same reality as I continued to perceive it, but without a body.  No indicators of a dream at all, just trance-like state. I have had a number of lucid dreams to know the difference. And with all these altered states knowing is usually the only truth and evidence.

At this point I restarted the FILD (finger technique which involves slightly tapping the index and middle fingers to keep consciousness awake while the body sets off to sleep). I felt an electric current in my fingers. I levitated upwards from my bed and was thinking of the next steps, because I could obviously feel this wasn’t a dream and therefore my dream plans were irrelevant. I also got extremely excited just like the first time and felt that I was being sucked back  into my body. Just then I realised I was feeling your presence around me. I didn’t “see” you but I knew you were there. I could feel this presence in thought, in heart and in spirit.

I wish I could have stayed longer and I would definitely get my birthday hug. But there’s no hurry, we have an eternity ahead of us. Eternity plus the time I’m destined to spend here trying to connect with you from one world to the other, tuned into your frequency, the frequency of love.

But now I’m off to put on the facade of an ordinary woman, interested in work and routine, political talks and instagram gastronomy.





I’m going goosebumps right now as I’m writing this, as this thought I’ve been entertaining for an hour or so is something that never occurred to me before.

In my efforts to get access to the higher realms of existence I’ve been practising a bunch of different techniques and approaches and all of them are related to energy, vibrations and frequencies, as these are the essential notions in afterlife and actually life theories.

One of the things I’m after is energy-work, which means raising the vibration of one’s energy body, which is considered to be kind of an engine that breathes life into the physical form that the soul inhabits, the ‘invisible’ medium between the soul and the body. It is thought, and I’m coming to share this belief, that once you are able to actually be this body and vibrate at altered frequencies you will be able to access other dimensions vibrating at the same frequencies, like tuning into a different radio channel.

There are lots of ways of doing energy-work, ancient shamanic, modern and traditional eastern as well as simplified empiric western methods. I’m experimenting with a mix of these to see for myself whichever works best and so far I’m enjoying Robert Bruce’s NEW (New Energy Ways) approach.

While doing the proposed exercises you are getting lots of interesting sensations, some very common, others new and unusual. And I must say it does feel like you’re gaining some control over this subtle energy body that we are not used to sense much in our everyday life without specifically focusing on it.

Now today I was walking in the park during a break that I’m forcing myself to have daily to be in nature (this is also a common method for raising vibrations, but for me this was just an intuitive urge, which I decided to follow at some point). I was listening to music, observing the trees, the skies, the birds and the water and suddenly I got this overwhelming feeling of admiration with all this beauty around me, so harmoniously filling up all my senses. And it gave me goosebumps. And suddenly I realised that this is one of the cases when our energy body shouts out and expresses itself, protrudes from the frame of the physical body which becomes small and confined for all the emotions that engulf the soul.

This is just one of the things that I suddenly started to see differently, but this whole spiritual journey is like that – giving you goosebumps all the time and making you change your perception of life and its unanswered mysteries at an enormous speed. Once you’re in, there’s no way you can live as you used to before. Just impossible.

And here’s the melody that I was listening to, maybe it will give you goosebumps too and you will be intrigued to push the limits of your physical body!





PS I see a sign here. I just finished writing the post and decided to check out what the daily prompt is for today and guess what, it’s
Shiver . I see this as a confirmation from my twin that I’m right in my thinking. He always gives me little signs to confirm my thoughts. I’m lovin it! And going goosebumps again…



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Visitation No. 3

We were probably walking towards the bench that I had been visualizing for a while and setting a dream intention of, but didn’t get there as I was woken up by the kids, nevertheless this walk of ours felt amazing and so so real, leaving this extremely warm and happy trail of an after-feeling in the morning.

Interestingly, we were walking in the same street where I got your last visitation of the moon. I wonder if this means anything by itself. But I do feel a huge surge of energies in these places when I now walk there after having had these dreams and it feels very strong – this sensation that I have really been here and experienced what I experienced in the dream.

For some reason you told me you did not have much of a selection of t-shirts (being now a free spirit) and that if I wanted I could get you another one (probably, through the power of visualization). I looked at the t-shirt and it was dark blue with some white writings. I even recall the texture of the fabric, so light and semi-transparent. But I couldn’t read the writing. I guess this was again an attempt to give me a trigger, which I missed as always. Instead I grabbed you by the arm and hugged you dearly leaning on your shoulder and smiling so as to say that I don’t really care what you’re wearing, it’s just great to walk like this by your side, my dearest friend.

One interesting thought that visited me later in the day was that the fact of you appearing in my dream with me fully realizing that you have passed away doesn’t trigger me to lucidity as something unusual. It IS unusual to walk with a spirit/ghost and still I think to me you are so much alive and I so truly believe in your existence in the afterlife that I don’t take it as strange.

One other nice coincidence (sign) was seeing a young man in a dark blue t-shirt with writings pretty similar to those of yours today when I was walking in that very part of the street. I even thought I had to take a closer look and read what was written as there could be a message.

The next thing I remember in the dream was someone calling my name. We stopped, looked all around but didn’t see anyone familiar. So I just decided this was a call for someone else and you said there couldn’t be anyone else, I’m the one and only. This reminded me of the phrase that my daughter asked me earlier all of a sudden and which I thought were your words put into her mouth.

And the last thing I remember right before waking up was you saying: “Oh those fears of yours and his”. I don’t understand what fears you would be referring to and who the HE could be, but it keeps me thinking. Perhaps you were talking about the past and why it didn’t work between us, that it was all because of some stupid fears. And the HE is your physical self who is now just one of the many versions of yourself the eternal. The other possibility is that you were giving me a hint that it was because of fears that I could not fully become lucid in a dream or reach out to you in the astral. But then I don’t know who the HE is in this case. And then I feel like I am free from fears, now that I know life is a lesson, we are eternal, I have no fear of death, even some fascination with it, and when one is free of the fear of death, they lose fear of anything else.

This last riddle is going to give me a hard time. But I like your guidance, the way you make me more aware, more thoughtful, inspired and full of love towards you, me, the unknown and this beautiful life. So yes, please, lead me, guide me and walk beside me…more often.








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Mugwort dreams and serendipities

Today I felt your presence especially strong.

My morning started off with the chinking sound of the door-lock as if someone turned the key, but there was nobody. This was the second time it happened. You have probably gotten stronger in your new form and are already handling physical objects better, just like Sam in the Ghost movie, whom it took some time to learn to operate with coins and then bigger and more significant objects.

I had the whole day filled with our secret number, more than in any one day, and in the exact sequence as it doesn’t always happen. And the last one that had me dumbfounded was the taxi with the number plates holding this number and the actual name of the taxi company, that I saw later written on its side-door was your name! I had never met this taxi company in the city before and I remember thinking about not ever seeing your name anywhere including in taxi names which are very diverse over here. Thank you for this one.

I always thank you for the signs, as I know this means you are keeping me in your thoughts and are satisfying my somewhat childish and demanding requests for signs and permanent proof of presence. This is not because my belief in you is shattered, it’s just my rational mind asking for these constant reminders to stay on the wave and keep supporting the soul-work. So thank you for the patience.

I also appreciated your other sign today when you manifested my thoughts into reality. I was at your grave today and somehow I had this feeling that I must meet your mom there, but I knew this would hardly be possible without prior arrangement as today was no commemorative date and the timing wasn’t usual for her. As I was driving to the exit of the cemetery I saw a car, and thought “Is that her?” but it wasn’t. And I thought “Come on. Stop this.” And right then at the next turn I see her car and her buying flowers for you from where I just bought my usual white flowers symbolizing the purest and most divine love.

I feel such a strong affection towards your mom. And such a strong call from you to see her often, support her, give her some love which you no longer can give her. I love her just because she’s your mom, she gave life to you, she is the only part of you left here with me and I love her unconditionally. I also have a strange feeling, that this affection is not mine. I feel like it’s the You in me who longs to see her, hug her, drop her a message. Thank you for another chance to see her.

I feel like this was a very intense day with so much You in it. I do hope this means we will also meet in my dream or maybe in the astral plane if the mugwort tea I just brewed and took in in huge quantities helps.

Eternally one







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Look Up – Lucid dreaming and another sign from my deceased twin

HeartsJulyLooking up has become a routine for me now in search of signs from my deceased twin-soul. Heart-shaped clouds are my favourites.

It’s been about a month since the last one I saw and today I was looking at the sky, no hearts…I thought, well it’s probably not that simple for him to draw hearts every time I look at the sky, I’ve had plenty already and shouldn’t be asking for so many more. It took seconds for these three hearts to shape up right above me! Not as clear as the last heart, but given that there are three of them, I assume he’s not had enough time to bring them all to perfection 🙂

Looking up has also become a reality check technique for me in attempting lucid dreaming.

Since my last visitation dream where he appeared in the moon, I decided I should use the sky as a reality check, as in the dream the sky may appear so unrealistically fantastic and cosmic that it can well work as a sign of a dream.

In case anyone’s interested, this is how it works:

  1. Look at the sky during the day as frequently as possible and ask  yourself very sincerely whether you are in a dream.
  2. If the sky is beautiful, as it’s always beautiful, but still kind of usual, then you just tell yourself that this is not a dream.
  3. If the sky is unrealistic and cosmic, like you can see planets, a huge moon or stars, colours etc, then you are dreaming. From this moment on you have become lucid and can start controlling your dream environment.

The key to the success is the frequency with which you do this exercise and the sincerity of wondering whether this is a dream, because really, you never know when you are in a dream. Sometimes a dream, however fantastic it is, feels like reality during the dream and you don’t realize you’re dreaming because your critical mind is shut off. The frequency also helps make this a habit and therefore increase chances of you to look up to the sky in your dream!

So far only flying dreams have worked for me in prompting lucidity, but I’m sure the “look up” method is well worth a try!

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Hearts and minds

More signs have been coming in these days apart from the more usual ones, like numbers and songs.

Another heart, much clearer this time. I just love it, love it, love it! This just cannot happen twice as a coincidence. That would ruin any theory of chance.

heartI have two versions for explaining this miracle:

  1. This is a drawing by my twinflame friend. I’m obviously inclined to this first version.
  2. This is my consciousness creating this reality around me. This version would mean that my twinflame friend is actually also a product of my consciousness, as is the whole universe, including all of the readers of this blog,  yes – you!, and just basically anything. This would mean that I (by saying I – I mean my higher self, the pure consciousness, the universe, the nature) created my friend, I then killed him (removed him from this reality) so that his passage would awaken me, shake me up and lead me on this path of self-realization and new experiences. This is too complicated and as much as I dive into these hypotheses I get lost at some point where my physical brain/logic cannot process it further.

I hope my explorations through OOBE and meditation will help me understand this better and one day I will have the answer.

Angelic healing

This one is a blast!

Just recently in a completely new company of people I was meeting for the first time I heard a story about a good man who suddenly fell into coma. He happened to be the son of a composer whose music I adore and a person loved by many for his numerous good deeds as well as work with children who need help. He instantly got my sympathy and although I had never met him, I kept thinking about him. This thinking got me as far as the possibility of people in coma to be somewhere on the astral plane, where an experienced astral traveller could possibly reach them and talk to them and possibly guide them back to their physical body in case if they have just accidentally got lost.

I was thinking of trying to do that and tuning in to this story during my next astral projection attempt, but because I realised I was not yet that experienced and energetically strong to navigate the astral planes that purposefully, I immediately thought to ask my friend to help this man if he can and if he is my guardian angel now.

A week later this man wakes up from coma.

The same two versions apply here as well. I’m even happy for this to be the third version – a coincidence! It doesn’t matter. All that matters is that a good man is back to life and can continue bringing happiness and beauty to life and the people around him.



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Love will save the world

I was never a particular fan of rain. It felt like happiness was only existent in a sunny warm weather. I now find happiness in the rain.

bwbeautifulblackandwhiteflyflyinggirl-26bf77defd794312976caddf5323acbb_hBecause it allows me to feel my natural sadness of these days. While the sun unwillingly forces me to have fun.

Because it hides the tears.

Now the most important two:

Because he is now part of it, part of the universe, and rain gives him a physical form and he becomes feel-able and touchable. And I allow him to rain down on my face, my hands and gently hug and kiss me.


Because I feel like it should be easier to astral project when it’s raining. Either because water is a good conductor of cosmic energies or because the sound of it helps meditate or for some other reasons I am not fully aware of…not yet.

Astral projection has become quite a thing for me after his passing. I always had flying lucid dreams and as I started exploring the possibilities for connecting with deceased people through dreams, I stumbled upon the astral projection topic, which was quite a favourite one for my friend and we would always have the debate of whether dreams were actually happening in one’s mind or on an astral plane.

As a strategic and analytical person, I set myself a task of developing my skills in lucid dreaming and astral projection and explored literally all possible methods and techniques, starting with the very spiritual, on to empirical and often pop methods and ending with quasi-scientific/academic approaches. I’ve combined all the knowledge and put these all methods to test and eventually I’m having significant progress in just two months.

To some this might seem a wrong motivation for exploring astral projection, but I believe it isn’t. I have always had this strong conviction, that if anything is done for/with love, it can’t be wrong. Love is my driving force now as well and I’m sure that the possibilities that astral projection would offer, should I be able to establish the connection, could be used for the world, for sharing this love and supporting the overall positive and love-forming energy in the world. I know that’s ambitious, but that’s what drives me forward. And if there’s any 0.1% chance that this might be possible, I’m going to give it a go. And if there’s 1 person in the Universe who has been able to do this, I will, too.

I will be posting separately about the astral projection experiences, techniques and interesting findings as I go along and will be happy about any experience-sharing and discussions.



The afterlife love story from the beginning.